Devising 4

Whilst I was listening to my iPod, the song Asleep by The Smiths came on and as I was listening to it, I suddenly got this feeling of weariness. It made me think of my character, Xanthe, and how she feels like she craves intimacy but is terrified of getting hurt and giving herself up to someone. I imagined her just wanting to be held and sung to, and to sleep deeply and never wake up and feel scared. Sort of like as she fell asleep she wanted to keep that feeling of being loved and held so she didn't want to ever be woken up and have to face her fears.

This was a real revelation for me - since I don't have the sorts of fears that Xanthe does, I've never feared commitment or being loved by someone the way she does - and I think I'd like to explore this sense of weariness and desire to just be at peace. 

Lyrics:

Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I'm tired and I
I want to go to bed

Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
And then leave me alone
Don't try to wake me in the morning
'Cause I will be gone
Don't feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I will feel so glad to go

Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I don't want to wake up
On my own anymore

Sing to me
Sing to me
I don't want to wake up
On my own anymore

Don't feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I really want to go

There is another world
There is a better world
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well...

Bye bye
Bye bye
Bye...